*tap* *tap* Is this thing on?

...par for the course with me...

I've been kind of following my plan but not writing things down...

I've been working out but not as consistently as I know I can...

I've been losing weight/inches but not as fast as I want (I want it and I want it NOW!)...

Part of my journey is to work out these issues I have with starting something/getting results/loving my progress/getting lazy and then before I know it I'm back where I started (although in this case I have continued to lose weight...I never NEVER want to see that top number again). This is a pattern for me in all areas of my life and something that I've struggled with as long as I can remember.

Maybe I need a little inspiration to spur me to stay focused...

May 2000 - Honeymoon

Now I "know" that after 3 babies and *cough* 92 lbs gained I may never look like this again. That's okay! Really! I mean it! I'm okay with not looking just like that again...but I would like to get pretty close! :)

don't you just LOVE my loooooong sentences? I do! :)

W1/D6

Cal goal per meal: 300 cal
Daily Goal: Cal-1500 Fat-<65 Carbs-<200g Pro-100g

Meal 1: 1/2 cup cottage cheese Cal-100 Fat-2.5 Carbs-5 Pro-14
Meal 2: cheese stick Cal-86 Fat-6 Carbs-1 Pro-6
Meal 3: Veg Soup & Cheese Cal-222.1 Fat-9.8 Carbs-26 Pro-10.9
Meal 4: Chicken Curry Cal-272 Fat-13.7 Carbs-1 Pro-33.5
Meal 5: Couscous and swiss cheese Cal-488 Fat-11.9 Carbs-75.5 Pro-19.6
Meal 6: 2 Jello Pudding Cups Cal-120 Fat-6 Carbs-20 Pro-4

Total: Cal-1388.1 Fat-51.4 Carbs-147.5 Pro-92

Workout: None (boooooo!) - next week I'll have to kick into a higher gear!

W1/D5

Cal goal per meal: 300 cal
Daily Goal: Cal-1500 Fat-<65 Carbs-<200g Pro-100g

Meal 1: English Muffin & Peanut butter Cal-330 Fat-18 Carbs-32 Pro-12
Meal 2: NF SF Vanilla Latte Cal-102 Fat-2.4 Carbs-12.2 Pro-8.2
Meal 3: Egg Salad Cal-142 Fat-10.3 Carbs-2.4 Pro-6.5
Meal 4: Veg Soup & Cheese Cal-308.1 Fat-15.8 Carbs-27 Pro-16.9
Meal 5: Big Salad w/beans Cal-298 Fat-2.9 Carbs-50.8 Pro-16.6
Meal 6: Chicken Curry Cal-272 Fat-13.7 Carbs-1 Pro-33.5
Total: Cal-1452.1 Fat-62.8 Carbs-125.4 Pro-93.7

Workout: None - Again...things just kept coming up...that will be something I'll really work on for next week!

W1/D4

Cal goal per meal: 300 cal
Daily Goal: Cal-1500 Fat-<65 Carbs-<200g Pro-100g

Meal 1: English muffin & peanut butter Cal-210 Fat-17 Carbs-6 Pro-7
Meal 2: NF/SF vanilla latte & cheese stick Cal-188 Fat-8.4 Carbs-13.2 Pro-14.2
Meal 3: Chicken Curry Cal-278 Fat-13.8 Carbs-2.2 Pro-33.8
...and then it got interesting...

my brother's 40th birthday party was today and I had a plan...a great plan that would keep me on track... beforehand I counted up what I had requested for dinner and added 2 glasses of wine - it would have kept me within my nutritional goals for the day....

but I caved. The appetizer tray looked amazing and before I knew it I had several of those (pita toasts with hummas, veggies and dip, cucumber/cream cheese/shrimp) and a beer and 2 glasses of wine...at dinner I didn't eat all my meat (probably only 2oz) but I had another couple glasses of wine...got home had a beer. SO MUCH FUN! I'm not going to worry about it. I learned a lot about what I would do different the next time.

Total: Cal-? Fat-? Carbs-? Pro-?

Workout: Group Power

W1/D3

Cal goal per meal: 300 cal
Daily Goal: Cal-1500 Fat-<65 Carbs-<200g Pro-100g

Meal 1: Cottage Cheese/Grapefruit Cal-282 Fat-5.3 Carbs-30.7 Pro-28
Meal 2: NF SF Vanilla Latte Cal-102 Fat-2.4 Carbs-12.2 Pro-8.2
Meal 3: Curry Chicken Sandwich Cal-378 Fat-15.3 Carbs-21.2 Pro-37.8
Meal 4: Cheese Stick/2 Boiled eggs Cal-242 Fat-16.6 Carbs-2.2 Pro-18.6
Meal 5: English Muffin & Peanut butter Cal-330 Fat-18 Carbs-32 Pro-12
Meal 6: Home Made Veg Soup Cal-135.1 Fat-3.0 Carbs-25.1 Pro-5.2

Total: Cal-1469.1 Fat-60.6 Carbs-123.4 Pro-111.4

Workout: None - I'm a little irritated about that but I really made every effort to get there.


and...Enter the crabby....

...nuf said... :)

W1/D2

Cal goal per meal: 300 cal
Daily Goal: Cal-1500 Fat-<65 Carbs-<200g Pro-100g

Meal 1: Protein Shake Cal-310 Fat-8.9 Carbs-33.2 Pro-36.2
Meal 2: Curry Chicken Salad Sandwich Cal-398 Fat-14.8 Carbs-28.2 Pro-38.8
Meal 3: Cheese Stick Cal-86 Fat-6 Carbs-1 Pro-6
Meal 4: Egg salad Sandwich Cal-164 Fat-6.5 Carbs-20.8 Pro-4.2
Meal 5: Home Made Veg Soup Cal-135.1 Fat-3.0 Carbs-25.1 Pro-5.2
Meal 6: Apple & Peanut Butter Cal-282.0 Fat-17.2 Carbs-25.1 Pro-7.4

Total: Cal-1375.1 Fat-56.4 Carbs-133.4 Pro-97.8

Workout: Group Power 60min / Stairmaster 30min

[met/slightly under all goals]

W1/D1

Cal goal per meal = 300 cal
Daily Goal: Cal-1500 Pro-100g Carbs-<200g Fat-<65

Meal 1: Skinny Latte Cal-82 Pro-8.4g Carbs- 12g Fat-0.4g
Meal 2: WW SmartOnes Cal-240 Pro-11g Carbs-36g Fat-5g
Meal 3: Tuna/Egg Salad Cal-292 Pro-17.5 Carbs-1.4 Fat-17.3
Meal 4: Chicken Dinner Cal-328 Pro-36 Carbs-15.4 Fat-12.9
Meal 5: Milk Cal-256 Pro-20.6 Carbs-30.4 Fat-5.9
Meal 6: English Muffin & Cream Cheese Cal-320 Pro-9 Carbs-30 Fat-19

Total: Cal-1518 Pro-102.5 Carbs-125.2 Fat-60.5

Workout: Elliptical 60min

[met all goals...slightly over on protein]


You have to start somewhere...

I met with my friend, Amy today and I'm feeling very encouraged about starting this process. I was nervous about the amount of meal planning (6 meals!) and having each meal be only ~300 cals, but everything is a process and I know the longer I do this the easier it will become.

At the end of day 1 I feel pretty good. When I realized I had one meal to go and it was 7:30 (no food after 8) I raced around to find something that would round out my day. The result? A whole wheat English muffin and 2 oz of cream cheese. It felt like an unexpected gift. 2 oz of cream cheese is ALOT! It felt decedent and indulgent (given my love of things creamy). Even with that glorious finish I still came in under my fat and carb goals which has to be a good thing. I haven't felt hungry all day (must be all that protein!!!), although I have had quiet a bit of heartburn (protein as well?).

I'm still trying to decided if I want a 'before' pic...I've been avoiding cameras like the plague.

Long and short I felt I was very successful today. It will be very hard not to weigh myself tomorrow but I'm resolved to only weigh myself once a week.

Tomorrow I am going to try to drink more water....I wasn't very good at that today.